Carpe Diem

carpe diem:

To "seize the day" and/or a certain moment in time.
To put aside all differences, all fears, all worries, and just go for it.
To make the most out of that part of time.

I've fallen into a relationship via texting.

 

That's the only way things can happen anymore, you know. Texting can be like the ancient activity of passing notes in school but all in an instant. It's semi anonymous, yet you can picture that person who you are texting to and its so damned much fun to text things you would NEVER in your life say out loud to that same person, even on the phone.  And that is exactly why people text instead of talk.

They say, 'If it seems too good to be true, it probably is.'  This new 'thing' could be a classic case of that rule. So, I think of this relationship kind of like a teen flick in the way that, in those movies, two or more people get caught up with each other but know all along that they will be parting ways in a few weeks.  It makes it important to live in the moment.  And I am.  Because I still plan to go up north this summer.  And that will be fine because I just don't see how something like this would last anyway.  My head is not in the clouds.

Learning about someone new, no matter how they figure into your life is pretty fun for me.  This person is a tradesman and talks about his company and what they do and I actually understand most of it. LLC's, S Corps, taxes: been there done that.  Stress, family problems, and anything he wants to talk about are interesting when you haven't heard it before. Meet a person and you meet their soap opera life, I've learned.  Being someone's fresh ears to hear this stuff is a great thing and its good for both people.  And since I am not thinking long term relationship, this is cool.

I also went out last Sunday morning for breakfast with an old guy from the dogpark.  He had asked me more than a year ago but I blew him off.  I see things in a different way now though. I listen to my dogpark friends about the lives of the people who go there day in and day out. It is a social club and a soap opera unto itself.  Just so you know, these people vary greatly in age, with 30 and 40 year olds through mid 70's. Married, divorced, widowed and single, everyone has a story. They bring human and dog treats to share. They watch each others' dogs when traveling. They get together outside the park too. Super Bowl Sunday was a chicken chili gathering at one of the houses nearby, dogs welcome. Breakfasts and lunches are almost daily with some.

I mainly go to the park on the days when I know my friend Yedi is there. I love her views on life and especially about the other dogpark people. There are a lot of opinions and rumors thrown around.  After going there and getting into these people's lives, both men and women, I just decided, 'You know what? Fuck It.  People are just people. I'm people and I want to be with other people.'  All the restrictions I have put on myself are of my own doing and I've decided I am undoing them now.  I am enjoying talking to people and not being so close minded about who they are and who I think I am.

About that breakfast with the old guy- it turned out to be ok, plus, he bought. :-)

So at least for a little while, I look forward to experiencing both the benefits and possible pitfalls of my decision-
                                                  to talk, text, listen, laugh, and live.