Hello Old Friend

Do you ever think about people in your distant past?  Maybe its a neighbor kid, or a student at the same high school or it could be a coworker you left behind in a job you used to work at.  What if that person you remember from your past is YOU??

How many people do we go through as we live our lives? Gosh, I'm thinking I've run through at least 10 versions of myself, but like Sybil, we are all different people.  Some of my 'me's' are pretty forgettable, or maybe I wish I could forget them.  I don't like some of those other Marshas.

The me I started being after Gary died was one skin I was glad to escape from.  It took awhile to shake that persona.  I think I was able to see my way out and pick out one of my more likable versions circa my 20's and that's kind of the one I live in presently.

How does this happen I wonder? Certain circumstances, a chance meeting and a conversation can spur desire and growth and change.  Having a new relationship with someone who is unlike anyone I've ever known is a big one.  I got to be a new 'me' but a morph of me as a younger person.  It was GREAT.  I am forever grateful that I got to turn a corner and find this other self and feel and talk like a different me.  Frankly though, it was addicting and it was destined to end, so it did.

Unlike old experiences of breakups, this relationship was not even old enough to put my heart through the wringer. Thank Goodness!  What it did do for me was to make me realize that I get to be friends with many other people and mostly be friends with myself in a whole new way.

I am very glad I was able to be involved even for just one month with a person I could never have imagined would be in my life until this time in my life.  I am also glad I have the times we shared in my memory and am relieved that I didn't let feelings get in the way of having fun while still being able walk away happy.  No regrets-no way! Plus, I got to be reacquainted with a shiny new me that I didn't know I could be.  It makes me get excited about what future relationships are in store for me.

Hello Old Friend.  Its really good to see you once again.